[ it's a little after the execution, and i threw a dart so they are at the main hall on the first floor. is ayabe checking for rats?? he can be!!
toi is just checking (for probably the fourth time since execution) that the front door is locked. it is, but he is so mad that it was opened before only to get locked again. it's fine. ]
[ Ayabe's imagining the entire place crawling with invisible rats all the time, it's really bad. He comes across Toi rattling the front doors and he's immediately hopeful despite knowing he shouldn't be. ]
It looks like trees, same as what you'd see from our rooms. Are you able to tell any of them apart?
[ Trees are trees. He had this conversation with 45 last week too, back when he was thoroughly convinced that this is the mountain surrounding his school, and not much has proven him otherwise. ]
[ but admittedly he was paying more attention to the like, execution? and only thought to look around when it was too late and then the door slammed. ]
[ Toi can. because it's an insensitive question to ask somebody who's just had to kill somebody on her own, but Michiru was the one outside and if she got her sight back at the same time as everybody else, she would be able to see the most.
Ayabe's not going to ask because something something respect and also because he's a wuss, Toi doesn't look like a wuss. ]
I'm sure she was. But something is better than nothing, isn't it?
[ It's a lot of hope to hang on others, though, and he reaches out and gives the doorknob another useless rattle. For as many times as it's been tried this past week, it'd be their luck if the thing just fell off. ]
[ It shouldn't count, but honestly, he's just kidding himself at this point. ]
...I couldn't understand very well what happened since I couldn't hear people speak, but Nikki was driven by some unconscious desire to hurt somebody else, right? And we have so many people here with conscious desires.
That sort of thing shouldn't be normal in any circumstance.
[ He comes from a normal world, bro... All of this continues to sound fake and his gut reaction is to extend the same for everybody and say that Nikki was just a normal girl with a normal life too. ]
It's too late to ask her now... I'm still having trouble accepting any of this as real, honestly.
[ There's a look like he wants to say something about Toi being Just A Kid, but that sort of thing sets Ken off and he wouldn't be surprised if Toi acted the same. What's age when experience matters most, anyways.
He can still hate having to deal with this. ]
...sounds like you know what you're talking about, from experience. You had a tough life?
You mean if I get attacked? Of course I'd do anything I can to get out alive.
[ ...That addresses nothing of what he's willing to do, he knows. Would he be able to kill somebody if it came to it? How would it feel like if he gave into the compulsion to kill people here- he's irritable easily, he has a temper too, and despite appearances, he's not weak. ]
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week 0, sunday
toi is just checking (for probably the fourth time since execution) that the front door is locked. it is, but he is so mad that it was opened before only to get locked again. it's fine. ]
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Any luck?
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[ he gives it another try before stepping back. ]
We didn't even get a good look at the yard...
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[ Anybody would have, but there's the compulsion to stay- safety in numbers, maybe.
Also being on the shoulder half of the height chart, he couldn't get a good look at much anyways. ]
As much as I could see, it looked fine, didn't it? I thought it'd be overgrown with weeds, with how they didn't want us to see it.
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[ WHERE THE FUCK ARE THEY ]
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[ Trees are trees. He had this conversation with 45 last week too, back when he was thoroughly convinced that this is the mountain surrounding his school, and not much has proven him otherwise. ]
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[ but admittedly he was paying more attention to the like, execution? and only thought to look around when it was too late and then the door slammed. ]
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[ Please be a new location next week so people can resort to climbing trees trying to escape ]
You can see from the balcony, though; just be careful up there.
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[ LET THEM OUT ]
We'll see, I guess.
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[ Toi can. because it's an insensitive question to ask somebody who's just had to kill somebody on her own, but Michiru was the one outside and if she got her sight back at the same time as everybody else, she would be able to see the most.
Ayabe's not going to ask because something something respect and also because he's a wuss, Toi doesn't look like a wuss. ]
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[ michiru seems like the type of person who would want to get shit done, honestly, so toi will let her grieve and then go knock on her door. ]
Although she might have been distracted as well.
[ from the murder ]
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[ It's a lot of hope to hang on others, though, and he reaches out and gives the doorknob another useless rattle. For as many times as it's been tried this past week, it'd be their luck if the thing just fell off. ]
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... and murder, I guess.
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[ It shouldn't count, but honestly, he's just kidding himself at this point. ]
...I couldn't understand very well what happened since I couldn't hear people speak, but Nikki was driven by some unconscious desire to hurt somebody else, right? And we have so many people here with conscious desires.
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I'd wonder if that's normal for her, but considering those three girls also have animal characteristics...
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[ He comes from a normal world, bro... All of this continues to sound fake and his gut reaction is to extend the same for everybody and say that Nikki was just a normal girl with a normal life too. ]
It's too late to ask her now... I'm still having trouble accepting any of this as real, honestly.
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It'll be a lot easier.
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[ Impossible. ]
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... that's not to say that it's okay or anything. But it's what we have to deal with.
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He can still hate having to deal with this. ]
...sounds like you know what you're talking about, from experience. You had a tough life?
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[ tough or not... you have to roll with what's handed to you. ]
Others had worse.
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[ Who here would win the tough life olympics? ]
...What should I be doing? I want to stay out of all of this, but that's not going to be an option.
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The rule is that each week someone is gonna die, but we have no idea what goes into all of that.
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[ ...That addresses nothing of what he's willing to do, he knows. Would he be able to kill somebody if it came to it? How would it feel like if he gave into the compulsion to kill people here- he's irritable easily, he has a temper too, and despite appearances, he's not weak. ]
Will you be able to take care of yourself?
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[ toi is aware that he is at a disadvantage if things come down to a fist fight, considering he is 14 and why do so many people have abs here.
but. he'll figure it out. ]
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