... our parents got conned into a huge debt, and they killed themselves to get out of it. So my brother joined a gang. And he... stole a lot of money from them, in order to pay the debt back and save our family's soba shop. What you saw is what happened after.
Well, that's... I mean, I'm not trying to be judgmental or anything, really, but that's not exactly great. You're not involved in anything like that, right?
...Yeah. I get what you mean. I mean, I'm obviously not in the same situation, but—
[How many times has he been surprised he's not more panicked, more desperate than he is as things continue to get worse? But... Life really does just go on, no matter what happens.]
You'll be able to stop after you make enough, though, right?
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[ and, similarly, hunter will also experience one as well.
so this is fun. ]
I...
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[Bad? Bad. He wipes at his face for a moment just to make sure those weren't actually his tears, before he looks over towards Toi.]
I - was that you...?
[He can think about the memory he shared after a moment, but. Bad!]
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sighs, tired. ]
That was me.
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[Actually, before any of that:]
Are you okay?
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[ the answer is automatic. ]
... our parents got conned into a huge debt, and they killed themselves to get out of it. So my brother joined a gang. And he... stole a lot of money from them, in order to pay the debt back and save our family's soba shop. What you saw is what happened after.
[ he knows hunter is probably curious, so. ]
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So, what you said yesterday about not being the same after you've killed someone...
[...]
I'm so sorry, man.
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[ no matter what happens, life has to go on, one way or another.
whether you want it to or not. ]
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[He has to wonder, though:]
Was your brother okay?
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He joined a different gang after. An opposing one. He works a lot with them now.
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[frowning!!]
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But, you know my profile says drug dealer, right?
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[...]
You know that you don't have to do that, right?
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And there aren't really many options to make that much doing something legal, you know.
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[He trails off, but they both know what he means, so. After a moment, he sighs.]
Man, that's - really rough. I have no idea if I was in that situation. I'm sorry.
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It's just... life now. I know I shouldn't say you get used to it, but you do.
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[How many times has he been surprised he's not more panicked, more desperate than he is as things continue to get worse? But... Life really does just go on, no matter what happens.]
You'll be able to stop after you make enough, though, right?
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[ ah. ]
Well, I'm not in that much danger personally. He covered for me, so no one should know about my involvement in that.